What Happened in the Sauna with My Berlin Lover
I recognized his devil’s smile leaning on the bar, with the black towel and red harness, and knew that night the whole sauna would witness what was ours.
I recognized his devil’s smile leaning on the bar, with the black towel and red harness, and knew that night the whole sauna would witness what was ours.
I lay naked under the last September sun, offering my body to anyone who wanted to look. Then the only man I thought I’d never see again appeared.
He thought he was alone under the water, until an arm circled his neck from behind and a rough voice whispered in his ear what was already obvious.
The headboard of his bed was hitting the wall at a steady rhythm, and I, awake in the dark, could no longer pretend that it didn’t affect me.
The bedroom door was ajar. I looked through the crack without thinking and what I saw pinned me to the floor: my father was not who I thought he was.
When he opened the door in his boxers and told me “on your knees, quietly,” I knew the Uber ride across town would be worth it.
The park was empty at nine. When the three dark silhouettes appeared at the end of the path, I knew I wouldn’t get home the same person.
My mind told me never to go back. My body remembered those lips and wouldn’t let me sleep. On the third day I dialed his number.
I went over just to watch the final. When the whistle blew, a hand sank into my ass and I knew the real plan was starting then and there.
We crossed the ocean to celebrate our twenty-first birthdays with them. When we came downstairs dressed, the two of them were waiting, and I knew nothing would ever be the same.
I lay naked on the table on purpose, not covering myself, just to see what he’d do when he came in with the hot oil.
I dreamed of both of them when I felt the weight of a body climb onto the bed. A warm hand ran down my back, and before I opened my eyes I knew it wasn’t Mateo who had returned.
I recognized him the moment he spoke: he was the same man from the week before, the one with that enormous cock that left me barely able to walk for days.