I Agreed to Be the Actress in My Husband’s Fantasy
I walked into the room blindfolded, nearly naked under my coat, not knowing who was waiting for me on the other side of the music. Only my husband’s voice guided me.
I walked into the room blindfolded, nearly naked under my coat, not knowing who was waiting for me on the other side of the music. Only my husband’s voice guided me.
When the train left without me, I thought the night was lost. Then I saw him at the other end of the platform, motionless, looking at me as if he’d always been waiting.
I went into the bathroom wearing my thong and came out with it tangled in my hair. I never imagined the line into the theater would be the longest part of the night.
I wear a thong under my cycling shorts and no one knows. It’s my secret on the bike, the start of the fantasy I play over and over in my head.
I said I had heartbreak just so someone would look at me. I didn’t expect two strangers to take my cure so seriously… or for me to let them.
I get home, strip naked on the sofa, and lose count. It’s my routine, my secret, the only thing I truly need at the end of the day.
I left them by the washing machine like just another garment, but the moment I brought them to my nose I knew that woman had planned everything from the start.
In front of the screen, with a cloth between my teeth so I wouldn’t scream, I obeyed every order from a man whose face I never saw. And I’d do it again.
It all started with a picture on my phone. Ten days later I can’t get out of bed without thinking about when I’ll get to touch myself again.
I bought that toy out of sheer boredom. What I didn’t calculate was that the building manager would end up holding it in his hands, looking me in the eyes.
I read every word he wrote to the other woman and, instead of rage, felt a heat between my legs I didn’t recognize. That afternoon, I stopped being invisible.
That night I locked the door, turned off my phone, and, for the first time, let myself discover what it felt like to stop resisting.
I had never thought about it until my new friends mentioned it. That night, alone in my room, curiosity won out over fear.
The package arrived on a Tuesday. I held it in my hands without opening it for ten minutes, knowing that once I did, there’d be no turning back.
With the trunk open, the valley blazing behind them, and him asking if I wanted to fuck there. That afternoon became exactly what neither of them expected.