What My Private Tutors Taught Me
When Natalia started taking off her blouse, I understood that goodbye wasn’t going to be like the others. I was 18 and had never touched a woman.
When Natalia started taking off her blouse, I understood that goodbye wasn’t going to be like the others. I was 18 and had never touched a woman.
When I got out of the shower, Sebastián had the pink garments in his hand and that steady look I knew I wouldn’t be able to refuse.
Under his jacket, something was moving. I should have left. Instead, I slipped my hand in, and what happened next changed that summer forever.
I walked barefoot down the hallway and rested my forehead against the bedroom door. I knew he’d come after me. And I knew exactly what he was going to do to me there.
On Monday he only realized that he couldn’t take his eyes off me. On Friday he gave me the library key and summoned me for six.
It was only a game to make friends, but when she asked if she could come over that night, I knew we’d crossed a line I wanted to cross.
I accepted without thinking. I read everything he posted. I never liked a single post. Three years later, I still don’t dare write to him, but I think of him every night.
He was twenty-one and had been looking at me for months in a way I pretended not to notice. That night my son went to bed and we were left alone.
Two separated women, an apartment too orderly, and a deck of cards no one should have found that night.
I’d always liked men. Or so I thought—until the night my friend looked at me differently, and something inside me answered before I could choose.
I’d spent a month thinking about that night, and I told Sandra everything without filters. She listened in silence and finally said: I’m jealous. That’s how it all began.
It had been a month since I couldn’t get that corner of Industria out of my head. That night I decided to go back, but this time I wouldn’t be alone.
When he called me up to his desk and told me to stop distracting him, I knew that by Friday my thong wasn’t going home with me.
The hallway was silent, his door ajar. I knew I shouldn’t go in. I went in anyway.
From the moment I got into the car, his eyes kept going back to the mirror again and again. It was obvious he was looking at me. I decided to do something about it.
I went to the airport in a red dress that was too tight, with a secret between my legs. That night, the red got into our skin, our mouths, everything.
She showed up without warning at the start of the semester and from the first day she looked at me without shame. I didn’t know when I started needing her to do it.
I was wandering aimlessly when he lifted his head from a second-floor window and held my gaze as if he knew, before I did, that we’d end up tangled in his sheets.
He asked me for a quickie while I was writing. He came out of the bathroom smelling like him, and I put on the lace stockings. I’m still savoring the rest.
Valentina saw the bulge under his shorts and didn’t ignore it. She stood up, glanced around to make sure the room was empty, and moved closer slowly.