Domination

In the bathroom, a makeup bag was waiting for me with a note: “put everything on and turn it on.” From that moment on, I stopped deciding what happened to my own body.

I'd imagined this day for two years. I never knew a suited man in his fifties, his gaze fixed on mine, would decide what my first time would be like.

I left home with my thong folded in my pocket and three phrases I didn’t choose written on my skin. Each class hour drove me closer to the edge, with no permission to finish.

This morning, while waiting for my coffee, I saw myself on my knees again, legs numb, head bowed, waiting for a single order from him.

I came in thinking I owned everything. Marisol, on her knees in yellow gloves, had already decided that tonight the owner would be her.

They dragged me to the examination room for not following the rules. They didn’t know that was exactly what I wanted: for someone to finally decide for me.

I’d gone days without hearing from her, dreaming of her orders. That afternoon I walked through a door I shouldn’t have and discovered how far I was willing to go.

I came three times on the locker-room bench before I understood my promotion no longer depended on my goals, but on how long I could stay on my knees.

She got out of the car with her jacket half open, and I knew that night I wouldn’t hold back. She’d said we shouldn’t; I’d already decided otherwise.

She’d spent years scrubbing other people’s houses with a polite smile, but that afternoon, on her knees over the marble, she discovered how much she needed to be treated like an object.

“I’m here to see if my wife works well,” the man said at my door. An hour later I was on my knees in my own kitchen, wearing his wife’s apron.

I was given a choice between three years in prison or becoming my wife’s obedient dog. I chose wrong, and that night at The Reserved I understood it completely.

I arrived at the farm with my designer tees and my city attitude. They had callused hands, a sharp knife, and a real talent for cutting me down to size.

I crossed the threshold following solemn music and found her lying on the bed, chained in gold and looking at me as if I were her only master.

She was only going to advise him about an apron. She never imagined that, in front of the salesman, he would point to her as the maid they had come to dress.

One smile and a couple of billiard shots were enough for her to turn his world upside down. Now he wears a lace apron and waits, trembling, for the doorbell to ring.

Blindfolded, with clamps pulling at my breasts, I stopped being the director who kneels before no one. Up there, I was only a number surrendered to his hands.

I got into the car wearing every piece he chose, and I knew that afternoon my only job would be to obey while people passed by, unsuspecting.

I opened my eyes and didn’t recognize the room: only the weight of hands on my skin and the certainty that that morning belonged to others.

I opened the wrong door and found her in front of the mirror, two fingers where they shouldn’t have been. She didn’t scream. She smiled like she’d just chosen her prey.