Forbidden

At twenty-nine she still had a good girl’s face, but that morning she walked into my office knowing exactly what she’d have to do for her father to sleep at home.

Pressed against the wall of the sitting room, I listened as my father sold me off again. That night I stopped being a bargaining chip and made the last decision left to me.

I agreed to go have a coffee with my friend’s boyfriend. When he opened the door to that room, I understood there was no coffee waiting for me.

I went down to the kitchen in my pajamas, with nothing underneath, knowing he’d be awake. The tension had been building for days, and that night I decided I wasn’t holding back anymore.

We kept crossing glances by the pool all afternoon. When I went up to get water and he came in behind me, I knew there was no turning back.

I promised I’d only tell true things, so here’s how my mother found out about my older boyfriend… and how I accidentally discovered what she really did.

No one at the party suspected a thing: to everyone, we were just friends. But that night Adrián drove toward the hill estate, and I knew we were done pretending.

I thought it was an innocent game of glances at the traffic light. I never imagined that on a Saturday morning I’d knock on his door with the most foolish excuse in the world.

I’ve never been attracted to men, but the thick cock of a macho who knows how to give orders drives me wild. Does that make me bisexual or something worse? I need someone to tell me.

At eighty-seven he thought he’d heard it all. Then she knelt on the other side of the grille and began telling him what she did when her husband traveled.

I’ve always hated public bathrooms, but that day I had no choice. What I never imagined was what I’d find when I ran back for the phone I’d left on top of the water tank.

I opened the door wrapped in a towel, still wet, convinced it was a package. It was him, with flowers in one hand and a smile that promised nothing innocent.

I’m not saying this to ease my conscience, but to confess how far I was willing to go that afternoon, with him asleep on the table and her just meters away.

It began as an academic interest in the brightest student in the group. What ended up happening in my office is still hard for me to put into words.

I picked up the fork she had dropped and, bending under the table, discovered something none of the adults suspected. That night everything changed.

The first time I heard her through the partition, I lay perfectly still, holding my breath, pretending to be asleep while she believed she was completely alone.

I recognized the basket of clothes that wasn’t mine, and before I could think, my hand was already buried in his things. What happened next changed me from the inside.

My brother told me everything: his lovers, his fetishes, what he did with Romina. What he never imagined was that one night I’d end up in bed with her, without him.

I found her panties on the hallway floor, with a note on top. From that night on, we played a game neither of us wanted to end.

I knew those two hadn’t invited me fishing just for the river. And if I’m honest, I hadn’t said yes just for the river either.