Anal

For years I kept my backpack in the car with all my lingerie inside, just in case. That Thursday, the moment finally came.

When I saw his name on the screen, my stomach clenched. Two weeks remembering his mouth and his hands, and there he was again, as if nothing had happened.

I’d been watching him in the locker room for months without daring to act. That afternoon, when he asked if I wanted to go up to his place, I knew it was now or never.

When I stepped out of the elevator with my thong already soaked and my dress clinging to my sweat, I knew that tequila wasn’t going to stay just tequila.

That afternoon I decided I was going to fuck him somehow, even if I had to dress for him and come on to him without a shred of subtlety. What happened next left me shaking.

I saw her on all fours over the dry grass, with the fluffy tail swaying between her cheeks, and I knew that Sunday afternoon was going to be unlike any other.

When Valeria put her hand on the back of my neck and pushed me down, I understood that night would cross a line with no way back.

I saw him at the coast café at midday. That night he was at the club door with his security badge, and I knew I wasn’t leaving without trying him.

I closed my eyes beneath the blindfold and my father’s voice built every detail. I wasn’t in my room anymore: I was with Rodrigo, and he was doing exactly what I’d dreamed.

When I walked into the empty club room that afternoon, I already knew we weren’t going to talk about books. What I didn’t know was how long I’d been waiting for this—or how completely I’d lose myself.

I’d spent a full week counting the hours. When I saw him come through the airport doors, I knew that night wouldn’t be like any other.

She took another sip of wine, looked at me with that smile that means a confession is coming, and started telling me what really happened that night in the rented house.

I crossed my legs, undid three buttons, and held his gaze in the rearview mirror. There was half an hour left, and I already knew we weren’t going to the hotel straight.

There was something about the man sleeping under the bridge that had kept me thinking for weeks. I went back that night not knowing what I hoped to find.

When we got off the plane in Ilulissat, we never imagined Inuit hospitality included leaving the bed open for guests. That night changed everything between us.

When Marcos described how he wrapped his lovers in stretch film, I had to escape to the bathroom. Not for the reason they’d think.

Three days were enough for Lucía to become someone else. What happened that afternoon at the club, on the wooden table, she wasn’t telling anyone.

When he got there first, she was already looking at the shelves with a book she wasn’t reading. They were the only two. And neither pretended to be surprised.

When the system blinked green and the screen sharpened, the last thing I expected was Camila approaching the armchair where my husband read the paper, completely naked.

He took my jaw in one hand and looked me straight in the eyes. He was my cousin. We were family. And neither of us backed down.